Here is my entire exposée! But finally here also is my final action of mind.
It is not about denying any personal experience or identity except denying this long justified denial in its entirety, which is the same as me finally taking responsibility.
The fact is: I am the maker of the world I see and what constitutes its thought system. The attacking and murdering figures in this world of pain, sickness, suffering and death, all memories resulting from fear believed to be real and stored carefully in all levels of the mind where the identification with bodies and idols are held, a universe of separate entities etc. as well as billions of galaxies coming seemingly into existence and disappearing again: they all are nothing other than my own past “creations,” past images in my mind that really are no longer here to be seen. They are of my own making, having impossibly attempted to find God by myself. They are entirely meaningless since they are only in my own mind, and all `private´ thoughts of which I could be – and am aware of are meaningless, because I am not alone in experiencing the effects of my thoughts. Indeed there are no private thoughts, if salvation is understood as a possibility at all. All I want is to leave this impossible world I made up and experience the undoing of it in the admission that I tried through -out time to replace Reality, the thoughts I think with God, with illusions I made up, but luckily could not succeed.
And the joke of the universe is that God does not know about my past illusionary thoughts because `God did not create a meaningless world´ (Lesson 14 from The Workbook of ACIM); I did!
`A meaningless world engenders fear´ (Lesson 13) because I cannot depend on it entirely and it offers me no ground for trust. There is no safety and no hope for me in this world because only chaos rules everywhere and the insanity of the ego dominates it. Insane thoughts are upsetting me. `I am upset because I see what is not there´(Lesson 6); once again I have replaced Reality with illusions I made up. I have given them reality and thus regard reality as an illusion. In such a world there is no God, but `What I see is a form of vengeance´ (Lesson 22), a self-defense and a picture of attack on everything by everything, followed by counter-attacks and ongoing conflicts and war between this `me´ and those held in separation and outward projected images of myself. This is what death is. This is the instant of separation, the only problem. Right there, in a vividly experienced moment of total devastation, is also the solution available… neither anywhere outside myself, nor in anybody else, but in me where the problem had to be exposed. Therefore it also must be a miracle that re-aligns me in that Holy Instant with the Light of God. Here-in lies my salvation.
`The Salvation of the world depends on me´ (Lesson 186): … It unites all wills on earth in Heaven´s plan to save the world, restoring it to Heaven´s Peace. Let us not fight our function. We did not establish it…All it says is that your Father still remembers you, and offers you the perfect trust He holds in you who are His Son.
After experiencing this I could not (and cannot) not-give it away. So, stand up with me together, extend HIS message and let us declare now: “Yes, its all me, I am responsible for what I see and I WILL it be undone by accepting the Atonement for myself and trust in the Power of the Holy Spirit, the Love of God given to His only Son. AMEN.”
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